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about
In 2017 I was diagnosed with a tumor called Ewing's sarcoma and, after a chemotherapy treatment, I was "cured". In 2021 it appears again and stronger, but I'm lucky and I'm "cured" again. This track was produced by my friend Lechuga Zafiro in 2019 and written by me in 2018. It is a poem born from the poison, from the entanglement, from the bitter feeling of happiness that gives you knowing that a treatment is curing you but at the same time it is killing you.
The funds we raise with this track will go to the research of Ewing's sarcoma, a malignant tumor, a rare disease that mainly affects children - it appears in the age of growth or decline -.
Research is the way to cure and cure is life.
lyrics
Have you ever thought deeply about disintegrating into something? and that something is useless
and that nothingness gives you the power
to not be necessary.
do you often wish
to end up becoming the uselessness of a serum
that allows the prolongation of the life of a terminally ill patient ter
mi
nal
I want to be fucked
so hard
so hard
that i get split in 2
that each one of my instestines gets split in 2
and to disappear
in the form of
a pre-orgasm
a pre-orgasm
that will never come and
never came
and everything remains in the great doubt of satisfaction.
I want to be the lacking energy of a rape victim who tries to run away from her aggressor,
but
but
I am certain
that I don’t want to be the guilt the victim will feel for believing they’re guilty
of such a circumstance.
Does anyone want to be the unknown answer of the question: who was/is to blame?
Does anyone want to be the unknown answer of the question: who was/is to blame?
Does anyone want to be the unknown answer of the question: who was/is to blame?
Does anyone want to be the unknown answer of the question: who was/is to blame?
Does anyone want to be the unknown answer of the question: who was/is to blame?
Come closer come on come closer come on come closer
Come closer
Caress your body,
caress your body to affirm that you are still alive
to confirm that you are still in your life.
Squeeze it,
squeeze it until you feel the check that it’s not yet the time
for your big final moment
but
why do you feel bad
is it perhaps
there is an end in you?
is it perhaps I’m going to leave you
here,
I go away
and leave u here
I go away and leave u
u u
u
is it perhaps I’m going to leave you
here,
I go away and leave u here
I go away and leave u
u u
u
your passage through my life has changed me
your passage through my life has changed me
It’s the night who will destroy me,
it is the night who will rebuild me,
we are going to tear each other every night.
credits
JOVENDELAPERLA
Prod by Lechuga Zafiro
Art by Perla Zúñiga
